Random thoughts...unable to sleep

So...I lie awake at 11 pm, trying to stop my mind from running. Funny thing is I have had the best day.  I was able to save money while grocery shopping and fill my house with food to eat.  That is one of the best feelings to me...providing food for my family to eat.  Having the cupboards full of good things to eat and not having to scrape up something for meals. 

Suppose I need to stop for a second and remember those who can't do this...provide for their families.  I am always so bummed when I can't.  We have been so blessed and I often forget that.  So many times when we can't go shopping for stuff we "need" I get so stressed out.  There are so many people who don't get to have the satisfaction  I did today. Wow...makes me stop and reflect on all God has done for me.

I was watching a video that a friend posted on Facebook yesterday...a reminder of the amazing universe God has created and how He chose us out of all of that.  Of how small we are and how huge He is.  Of how He died for us...small humans. 

All this makes me want to give Him glory more.  All this makes me want to stop focusing on the temporal things of this world and start focusing on Him.  All this makes me stop............

But then I want to shout!  SHOUT Praise to His name!  Just sing with all that is within me.  I would too...except my family is asleep.  I am in awe that He loves me.  That He chose me.  That because of what He did on that cross so many years ago, I can live forever! That even though my "Big Day" was so important to me, He still keeps providing even on these days that don't feel so big.  That He still loves me on the days I choose to make it all about me.  That even though he is HUGE and I am small, He still cares about my "Big Days."

All I can say is WOW...and THANK YOU!  Thank you Lord for all you do for me.  Thank you Lord for choosing me.  Thank you Lord for sending your Son for me.  Thank you Lord for today, my "Big Day"

Ok, I think I am done rambling now...good night!

Mobile posting

Set up my new mobile posting! Not sure when I would need it but hey...

I sent this via my phone just moments ago...seems odd to be able to post from a phone to a blog.  When did we advance so far here in America.  I know I grew up in the age of computers and such but I am still amazed at all the changes that are being made almost daily.  I must say that I think I am prone to enjoy a simpler life, less stuff and more time interacting  with people, you know, flesh beings instead of plastic and hardware!




I guess some would say I am old fashioned...oh well, maybe I am! (Although, I may still use the mobile posting if I am gone for an extended time, guess I am still young enough to enjoy the fancy stuff) 

Home again

We had a great time away for the holiday weekend.  Got home yesterday evening...now back to "normal"...although I am not sure I have ever been there! 

July 4th

We are heading out of town today for a few days of fun with my husbands side of the family.  Should be a great time of getting to know each other.  Pray with me as I continue to mend the relationship with my mother-in-law.  I desire to honor the Lord in how I act towards her and the things I say to her.

I hope and pray you have a great weekend too.  Enjoy your family and remember the men who fought and are still fighting for the freedoms we enjoy here in America.  As is said so often, freedom is never free!

Stretching....hurts a bit

I have been going through some times of stretching lately.  All somewhat difficult things...all things the Lord is teaching me.  I decided that my "theme" for this year was Relationships. Well, as soon as that happened, the Lord challenged me with some relationships.  First, in January my grandmother passed away.  I miss her very much!  The Lord taught me I don't have a guarantee of tomorrow...I need to make every moment count, for Him. 

Through my personal study time in the Word I began to feel the Lord calling me towards mentoring/encouraging the younger women and new Christian women in our church.  I am not sure where that is going but I am waiting on the Lord for answers.  But, I had a relationship in my life that was not right.  Without going into details, my relationship with my mother-in-law was not where it should be.  I had some time with her alone a little bit ago and was able to talk things out.  Now we are moving towards a better, God honoring relationship.

Then a few days ago our puppy died.  Again, sparing you the details, we all were a bit crushed.  It took me a few days to get to a point where I could stop seeing the ordeal in my head every time I closed my eyes.  But yet again, the Lord used it to mend a relationship.  My beautiful daughter just turned 6 recently.  I realized that my time with her has not been quality time.  I have another child who will be 2 in August.  He has taken up a lot of my time.  That is ok, but M (my daughter, I will not use my kids names in this blog) needs to know that she is equally as important.  I have somehow lost track of that and now I am back on! 

So I am being stretched...and sometimes it hurts.  But all the while, I am mending the most important relationship, my walk with the Lord.